Every time when I plan and map out my life, God comes along and reroutes that map. I realize how small I am in this Universe and unimportant "my wants" to his overall plan. Time and time again, when I think I have God figured out on how he is going to come along, rescue me and pay attention to MY PLAN, I fall down on my knees with scrapes and bruises. God is too big, and too unknown for me to put him in "MY PLANNED LIFE". Five years ago, I planned out my entire life. Graduate Baylor in 4 years, get into prehealth school, become a physician of some sorts, get married at the age of 27, have my first child three years following....... Nothing has gone the way I planned out my life so far. I am lost. I have no direction, and no plan. And every time I think I have a God chosen plan, someone comes along tells me I can't do it, and I end up believing them. I begin to wonder if it truly was God's desire for my life or mine. A plan that I wanted God to believe in.
This is my last semester at Baylor University, a bittersweet thing. I am so ready to move out of Waco, and out of the Baylor bubble. But I have also loved every waking moment at Baylor University.This is my home. I also have loved moments with my sweetest, and most dearest true friends that I have made along the way. I am about to graduate in 5 months and I have no plan. I am scared to death. The past couple of years, I have done everything that I was suppose to do...take the classes advisors told me to take, get involved with educational leadership programs, not recreational programs. Well, this semester I am not playing by any rules. This semester I am doing everything I have ever wanted to do at Baylor.
For once in my life, I am going to worry about my own salvation with christ instead of others. I have taught a bible study for the past three years, and have put my relationship with christ on the back burner. I love teaching others, but I forgot about my own daily devotional studies with God. I was so busy investing in others lives, that my own soul was starting to melt. And that is not good for them or me. This semester, I am going to read the book, CRAZY LOVE. I hope ya'll read it along with me, and join the semester of living life to the fullest--God Standards. I am reading this book with my two best friends, and can't wait to see how we grow together. These next 5 months are going to be pivotal to me and my friends. It be will be the last time we will probably ever be in the same city. This book has a video segment over each chapter with the author's teachings.
JOIN ME IN READING THIS BOOK.
www.crazylovebook.com
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